I love you. I remember you
all. I remember Ayshia from the one time we met on the sidewalk
when you were visiting our block. The time you spelled a name that
was another first for me. It rhymed with Asia but was difficult to
place in my brain that first time. I remember both you and your
name being very beautiful and alive.
[ The picture to the right shows the corner where we met - after the fence and the new apartments across the street-
the bush is still there - bushes were the old way of discouraging kids
from cutting across lawns - fences are the new way. ]
I remember Trish, or as recently
discovered, Patricia, from the few times we greeted when you were
visiting our block. I remember you and your sisters wanting rides
on the front basket of my bike - as my long time, six year old friends
and helpers from the next block were enjoying. I remember giving
the youngest rides; and the pleadings you older girls made, despite my
explanations that you were too big. I remember we all laughed a
lot, regardless of who did or didn't get rides. Those were fun
times.
I especially remember Kizzy.
I remember when you first moved into our hood in the Summer of 1991; that
summer being the third year we got a legal fire hydrant sprinkler for our
block. I remember you laughing, jumping and running through the
spray with your new neighbors and friends; with your 12 year old barely
emerging womanhood in sharp contrast to the fun loving child you still
were, then.
I especially remember Kizzy.
I remember how you (along with your brothers and sisters) were always
polite and courteous to me; how you seemed unafraid of your
environment. I remember how you seemed to be a natural leader; how
younger kids looked up to you; how the boys in the hood were attracted to
you. I remember thinking what a shame it was you had to grow-up so
fast in a poverty concentrated, resource deficient environment where kids
are left to themselves to grow like weeds for lack of alternatives -
especially alternatives where skilled decency could be role modeled if
not formally taught by volunteering adult chaperons.
I especially remember Kizzy.
In a normal environment, you would have been a medal winning scout
leader. Given more decent alternatives, you would've been leading
your friends around to neighborhood
dances, plays, socials, athletic events and other safe, decency
instilling, teenager friendly activities. You would've been helping
them cope with the sly games boys tend to play to get their way; helping
them get to know the good and bad in the hood. You would've been a
great supervisor, manager, boss, business owner or social leader had you
been given even half a chance. I love you Kizzy. You made me
feel that even in the toughest, most difficult circumstances there is a
ray of hope. There are shining examples of courage and leadership
all around us. I love you Kizzy. I'm very sorry you were in
the wrong place at the wrong time. You should've been born a
hundred years from now - in a world more friendly and compassionate to
children.
DD: 12/26/92 12/25/92 NEIGHBRS kizzy FO=P F=20 HO=18 J=13 V=6
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